I have to admit, sometimes I'm a little... annoyed? (OK, that was no secret).

I know plenty of girls who came to BYU supposedly to learn something but really only desperately latched on to the first man they could find. They got married and started having babies, maybe took the trouble to finish their degree, and then all you see is Facebook updates about their baby's latest blowout or how hard it is to be a mom.

Barf.

First of all.... honestly, I don't really care how often your precious angel poops. Or how sore your nipples are. Sheesh people, Facebook is public! If we're good friends chatting, of course I'd love to hear about your life. But public venues are so not an intimate friend-to-friend chat.

Second... enough with the self-validating comments about how tough motherhood is or how wonderful your stay-at-home life is!

And this is where I'm most conflicted. I truly believe that motherhood is an incredibly challenging and ultimately (hopefully) rewarding task. It's a divine calling, all that jazz... I get it. But sometimes, maybe this is society corrupting me, I feel like a lot of these people just took the cop-out route. I mean, how self-righteous does it sound to say that you sacrificed your education to raise your little one? Of course, we need to keep in mind eternal priorities and all, but don't you sometimes feel that deep down, just a wee little bit... it's awfully convenient that baby came before you had to actually work to help support your family?

And to my dear friends who read my blog and have babies--I promise I'm not talking about you. I think you are wonderful mothers :) I'm just irritated at this general attitude; it really makes me uncomfortable sometimes.

I get that motherhood is probably one of the most thankless tasks, but its nauseating when people do everything they possibly can to try to convince the world of how fulfilled they are and how much harder their job is than anything else. Really? There are working women who rock motherhood too: Valerie Hudson, world-renowned political scientist and mother of... seven children, I believe? Did I mention her kids are HOME-SCHOOLED?

Of course, it's easy for me to say this, because I've never experienced it. I get that, maybe I'll change my mind. But I hope that the day I become a mother I don't start talking nonstop and exclusively about every mundane and boring detail of my (and baby's) life. Hopefully my life will never be boring anyway.

I also realize full well that women aren't "just" stay-at-home moms. I get that it's a full-time job, and I value it highly. I don't think I want to be working like a maniac while having children, and I'm pretty sure I want to be a full-time mom for at least a period of my life. But I don't think I want it to be permanent. As much as I realize it's a crucial role on earth and in eternity, I don't think I'm meant to not work my whole life either. I love working in the media, and I may not follow the most conventional path but I want to stay active in the news my whole life, whether it's freelancing or doing documentaries every once in a while. Or writing a book or two... who knows. I just don't ever want to be static: that's probably what I fear the most, arriving at a point and realizing this is what I'll be for the rest of my life. I'd probably end up ridiculously depressed. I don't know, call me crazy but I feel like I have a contribution to make to the world too (and yes, I know, raising awesome kids is an enormous contribution, but I'm talking about contribution to my peers)

Anyway... this was my twisted way of saying that sometimes I don't know what to think about all this... and I especially can't bear the idea of being the girl who "just" did something because it was the easy route.